i'm not mad i'm just hurt inside

no ! it's not about "not responding" it's all about you not understand me :)
and me too maybe not understand with your way and not understand what you want..
my old friend said if i am is a insecure woman..
yaa maybe he is right.
actually i'm tired with all of the stuff in my life..
i wanna crying, sreaming, or maybe stop my life T__T
i am the woman who too shy to live in the hardest world..
And I realized that everything really made me depressed was started from January 2012
something force me to change my feeling from friendship to be more feelings..
after that :) hemm that feeling it's so not responsibility they go without a good reason and good explanation. and force me change to be more stolid !
thank you !

i'm not another girl who can do revolt for something that happen without wanting to happen..sometimes i'm just can said "WOW, so i was kinda like nothing to you huh?"
but i just can scream that every word in my heart! in my brain! in my mine!
not to share, not to asking for some answer just screaming, and all of them made me depressed without found the answer..
i lost everything because everybody in around me..
or maybe i lost everything because me..
ouuuurrgggh all of this can make me crazy ! or maybe i have been crazy.

please understand me more deeply.
so you can know more deeply about me in my heart.

nb:: every people change in around me! and i don't like that.
should i change too? being another person who wasn't me! we'll see, on the next episode on my story drama.